Thursday, May 31, 2007

Life is Depressing

Some days I feel horribly ungrateful. Here I am, in the "most powerful country in the world" with "the most freedoms of anyone" et cetera patriotic propaganda inserted here. On a more personal, and realisitic level, I am getting a great education, I never go hungry, I have a place to live, it is clean, it is relatively safe, and I'm never overly cold or hot. All of my physical needs are met, and more than necessary; I have cable tv and a laptop, and access to the internet. I have a guy who I love, and we are in an accepted, socially encouraged heterosexual, white relationship, and I have plenty of friends. I am fairly intelligent, or at the very least, I get good grades.

But, I am still...unsatisfied. I can't really think of a really good reason to do...anything. I go to school, workout, do my homework, do the dishes, read every once in awhile, keep abreast of the news...but it seems so pointless. I guess I'm going through a nihilist phase, but one that I can't seem to get out of. I want someone to tell me what is the point of life? What is the point to keep doing this: to live, work, play, exist? Why are we here? Why should I keep doing this day after day? Everyone just accepts that we should keep living, but I've never had explained as to why.

*sigh*

16 Comments:

At 8:14 AM, Blogger Teddy said...

Ask the weekend warriors. They go to work to fund their ascents of mountains and safaris every weekend. Or the collectors, who go to work to save to add some new thing to their collection, like me and Legos. Or there's the parents, who go to work so as to put food on their kids' mouths, clothes on their backs and a roof over their head.

Nobody can tell you what the point, the meaning of your life is except you. In all probability there really isn't one, so you're lucky enough to decide what you want it to be. But we don't know what it is.

TRH

 
At 7:15 PM, Anonymous mermade said...

Hey Cassandra - I tried to send you an email. I'm just wondering if you got it.

-sarah

 
At 5:33 PM, Anonymous Coyote said...

Cass, I would honestly like to know why you deleted your latest post (and all of the accompanying comments) rather than making a follow-up post. It honestly feels like you really are incapable of saying 'Sorry. I was wrong.' While this might not be the case it still feels that way. Perhaps you simply realized that it was offensive and decided to remove it rather than let others see it. But how about a post in it's place to explain your reasonings? As is, it feels hollow. As though you simply fled the battle field, robbing both of us of that final decision and the thought processes behind it.

 
At 8:55 PM, Blogger Teddy said...

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At 9:45 PM, Anonymous Coyote said...

Ted, your support is appreciated, but unnecessary. Thanks, but that's a little too much insult and not quite enough debate for my tastes.

 
At 8:19 AM, Blogger Goddess Cassandra said...

Coyote:

Done, and Done. Kindly see the latest post.

Ted, deleted.

 
At 3:44 PM, Anonymous Linus said...

I know what you mean - I have felt this way for along time. Then I read this:

"Man cannot live without love. He remains a being that is incomprehensible for himself, his life is senseless, if love is not revealed to him, if he does not encounter love, if he does not experience it and make it his own, if he does not participate intimately in it. This, as has already been said, is why Christ the Redeemer 'fully reveals man to himself.' If we may use the expression, this is the human dimension of the mystery of the redemption. In this dimension man finds again the greatness, dignity and value that belong to his humanity. In the mystery of redemption man becomes newly 'expressed' and, in a way, is newly created. He is newly created! 'There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is neither male nor female; for you are all one in Christ Jesus' (Gal. 3:28)"
Pope John Paul II

 
At 3:06 AM, Anonymous Jake said...

Shut the fuck up Linus

 
At 2:17 PM, Blogger Nick said...

Your post is a bit old now, so I guess there's not much point in commenting on it. Which leaves me at a loss as to why i'm doing so.

I imagine you feel differently about things now (if not, you might want to think about seeing your doctor for some anti-depressants!), but some of what you say echoes my thoughts from time to time. We're all allowed to be a little existential every now and again, and it does in fact seem that no matter how well off we are, we'll always want more. I think this is part of human nature, and it's part of the reason that there can't be any truly (and by that, i mean 100%) happy people in the world.

Unsatisfied we may be, but we're here nonetheless. Best thing to do is keep your chin up. Things don't always seem so bad.

 
At 2:56 PM, Anonymous Dude said...

white relationship? so if u were black, life wud be more depressing than it is? lol

sum racist shit

 
At 12:31 AM, Blogger Trenton said...

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At 12:32 AM, Blogger Trenton said...

The meaning is to get out of this hell to live in our true home: Heaven. And Satan is the creator of this world, I think everyone would agree that this world is hell, even the fact you were born into this world is cruel.

 
At 4:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Truth is, you're missing out on the most important thing...purpose. You are in a constant search for your purpose in life but can't find it. Your purpose is to live your life as Jesus would. He's giving you the opportunity to live forever in heaven. The least you can do is go to church and make an honest effort to do what God wants you to do, not yourself. I hope that helps.

 
At 10:03 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

To those who say "god " is the meaning of life, you are all delusional. You focus on the non existent, the blind, and a shallow hope to add value to your life.

Life is inherently meaningless. We are just animals, pieces of genetic material, soldiering on, ultimately only to continue the species.
most people are content with that. The vast majority of humans are more than willing to blindly play the game of follow the leader, and assume that equates to purpose.

The rejection of such ideology is the first step towards realizing the greater potential within oneself, and thus carving out a path that, while ultimately devoid of any grand meaning, is at least fulfilling.

 
At 6:00 PM, Blogger tipi said...

We live life because were scared of Death. I realized this and I'm 13. I want a good death by saving somone else who wants to live. Thats the reason why I live. But this life feels more like death, the more I'm in this world the more I want to die so I become depressed. But that one thing keeps me going. My advice to you is to find that one thing and wait till you get the chance to full fill it and thats what you say when you think about it again.

 
At 6:53 AM, Blogger Damien Roy said...

read the end game by derrick jensen then you will know.

 

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